So.. yeah D:

Hello again LiveJournal! A long time its been. Just got done Furfright, the last con for the year.. Nothing again til next year around spring or so.. Gonna be such a long and sucky time. D: Hopefully there will be a couple furmeets to go to in the mean time heh :)

First things first though in new happenings.. Well.. IM ENGAGED!! Yes, signal and I are now engaged, :) I'm so damn happy she said yes, talk about the biggest jump in someones life being so worth it.. <3 she's so worth every bit of time and energy spent making her smile. Finally did the big leap of faith for her <3

Work wise, got my review, raise, and promotion, been put on dayshift so thats a big plus. Wicked happy about that. :)

Furry wise.. Well.. getting a couple new suits, Having zel remade and my girl's doing something for me, which i cant wait to see either done :3..

Anyhow! Here it is, a nice little update haha! See you all around! gimme a shout on my messengers if you wanna chat!

Eh, another year older since sunday.. just turned 24. It was a pretty dull and uneventful birthday.. prior to the actual day I started my week off wonderfully by smashing up my car.. just got it back today a thousand dollars later.. Happy birthday from life with love, add that to needing new tires, replacing a serpentine belt, front end alignment, inspection, and registration.. I swear I have the worst luck with anything.. everything all at once decides to shit on my car just in time for it to utterly fail inspection and be driven illegally. Woo woo..

I've also been having my thoughts on getting a motorcycle.. I was thinking about it today a lot. If I got rid of my car, just signed it over to someone to take over payments, got my bike license and a bike from HK, I could save ton of money. I mean.. would only have to pay insurance for 6 months of the year, and a $6000-8000 bike financed wouldn't be a bad monthly payment, would save a hell of a lot of money on gas.. it would give me a break big time to set money aside for a car come winter and for moving.. cause right now my car is really killing me.. ; ;.. it wouldn't be so bad if the insurance was cheaper.. :\..

The whole car thing has just been stressing me out.. I'm seriously burnt out from everything that's happened this month.. I'm flat out broke until next friday and have to get everything fixed on my car by May 10th.. April being my birth month and there being the 10 day grace period after the birth month to get my tags and stickers.. uhg.. I need a vacation and sadly I can't because I'm friggin broke and my car is so fucked. And everyone I live with has the nerve to make fun of my misfortune and laugh at me, especially my fucking ignorant brother. Hope karma fucking bites him in the ass.

I'm seriously bumming.. I've had absolutely zero artistic motivation.. I haven't tried touching my sketchpad or tablet for over a month.. all I've felt like doing is sleeping all day. I miss my girlfriend so damn much, it's fucking sad how my own family laughs at me for whats been going on, and she's done nothing of the sort and has been the only person that offers to help me pull through it. I really need to lose this bad luck omen I have lingering over me.. cause I really need to get closer to the person that actually gives a damn about me. If only I would stop screwing things up and prolonging my leaving from here and going to a more fitting place like down to her area.. *sighs* I love her and miss her so much.. especially right now. This seriously sucks..

Last night's entry was more of a I'm pissed off cause someone I know that cries poor to me all the time, and is supposed to be my room mate soon and keeps saying they can't move yet cause they aren't ready finance wise always manage to have the money for something else that pops up. It's more frustrating when I'm just about ready to pack my shit up and go, when he's given me the same song and dance. Think it's time to do this on my own, or look elsewhere. Cause honestly I think in a recent turn of events, he's just gonna blow it off anyways.

But yeah, sorry for the running of my mouth, people do what they gotta do. :

One year ago today, I became the happiest guy alive, well feels that way anyways. Today is mine and Katie's one year anniversary. That day during the weekend trip with Bryan when I first met her in person, the day we made it official. It feels like it was yesterday, in the back seat of Silver's old(and retired) grand am that I said the very words to confess my love for her..

Happy Anniversary baby, <3.. it's been a wild year with you. It's been so perfect, everyday that goes by I find myself at the end of each one before I fall asleep, thinking about just how lucky I am to have a person like you in my life, you fill the role of Lover, Best friend, and Soulmate for me so perfectly.. You're my other half.. the missing piece of the puzzle called my heart. The best thing you've brought to me is happiness.. It feels so good to finally have found the person who truly understands me, and knows just what to do to make me smile.. you do that so effortlessly. You're always there for me when I need someone to talk to, always there to try to make me feel better through tough times.. always ready to help should I need a hand, like my best friend. God's blessed me with such a sweet girl in my life who's heart has the loving kindness of an angel <3.. I love you, here's to many more years to come.

And a shout out to Bryan, without him I wouldn't have met the girl I love so much right now, I owe you a lot for that man.. Thank you for driving me down there and playing a big part in us getting together.

Tis a day for celebrating, that's for sure. <3 I have so much to be thankful for today, all because of one special girl.. she's my life, my world, my everything. I love her so much and will do anything to make her smile.. because when she smiles, my heart is filled with joy.. and then I smile.. one things for sure that I'm doing right is living a wonderful relationship with Katie.. might be the only thing, but hey, she's my life, that's the only thing I need to do right to keep happy.. I love you so much Katie, thank you for making me who I am today and being the girl to fall in love with me.

In other news.. haven't posted here in ages..




New suit! :3 Sergeant the German Shepherd!

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And i feel like fucking shit. I can only think of one place I want to be for the holiday and I'm not there, and it's fucking killing me.. id rather spend it with a person who actually cares for me and misses me.. above those actually loves me.. its only been a few days away from my girlfriend, but it feels like its been an eternity...

Its like when you grow fond of something.. for my example.. being happy and feeling complete... then having to go away for a while from that.. its like having your most prized and proud part of you taken away.. it hurts.. a far greater pain than ive ever.. ever.. felt.. im not about to give up... but i hate to be away from the only thing i have to be happy about and thats her..

..and only she knows exactly how i feel right now... I love her so much.. sorry for the emo babble.. i just really feel like hell..

So it's that day we're all supposed to give thanks and appreciate the things we have.. First and foremost Happy Thanksgiving to all. I'm just as usual, having trouble sleeping.. just waiting for things to make me drowsy and got thinking about today and how this past year has been. Granted, I Have the typical things to be thankful for, like a warm bed to sleep in, a steady job (as much as I hate my boss, a job isn't an easy thing to come by now a days) a car, yada yada. The thing I'm most thankful for..

Friends.

Without friends, I'm nothing and I have nothing worth while. I value having someone to spend time and hang out with and/or talk to everyday than material possessions. With this being said, there's a few people I feel I need to well, say I'm thankful for crossing paths with over the time of my life, the majority within this very year, and last year of course.

First and foremost, my girlfriend, Katie. I have been talking to her near the end of last year for a couple months steadily.. just about everyday. She was that person who kept me from going crazy in tough times.. eventually blowing up more to falling for her. On March 1st, 2009 she made me well, the happiest dude alive after we made it official to be a well, in a relationship. It's been almost 9 months now, and I can only say that she is the only person who's ever loved me in a way so perfect, she's the only person who can get a smile out of me that I can whole heartedly mean, she's given me something I lost a long time ago, and that was the ability to truly feel happy. She's always there for me, anytime I need her, she's the person who I love, and the person who truly defines a "True Friend." She takes care of me, like family, she makes me so thankful to have such a wonderful person in my life, shes my best friend and lover, the only person who could ever make me this happy, it's the happiest I've ever been in the 23 years of my life, all because of this one special person to me, and I could not ever find a more perfect person to be in love with. I'm more then just thankful for having such a wonderful woman in my life. I feel well... Blessed. Thank you Katie, for always being there for me, I couldn't ever be so grateful for someone like you, I wish I had a better way to show you how thankful I am for everything you've done for me, especially not letting me forget what it's like to feel happy. I love you babe.

Onto the next person, Bryan. The man who essentially is the key player in myself and Katie being together. If not for this guy, I wouldn't have my happiness. Thank you for that. You don't know how much I really appreciate your friendship. I can be a prick, I know, but when don't friends have disagreements. I owe you more than just a Thank you for being the friend you are, you and Katie are the closest to Family that I even have. I have to say, I'm looking forward to the big move, I want it as soon as possible to save my sanity haha. So let's get crackin on that eh? I'm tired of this shit up here, I wanna go someplace where I feel welcome, thats hanging out with you and my girlfriend. Thank you for everything Bryan, really. From pissed off venting about how I hate my boss or how annoyed I am with my brother, to well, just babbling about nonsense, it's great to have a friend to talk to about anything that actually listens.

Callee, the coolest Border Collie out there, hands down. Thanks for being another friend I can ramble and rant at haha, thanks for hanging out with Bryan and I before the con for those few days, made things a lot of fun before and during FurFright, (Go annoyacon!) as well as giving yet another set of ears to talk to. (: I hope we can have an episode two of Annoyacon in the future :3

Ashley, Steve, and the rest of the poker gang, all my friends since High School, these guys are all awesome, they're all fun to hang out with and have a game of cards or whatever the agenda is for the night. It's just too bad that my schedule changed and I can't play cards anymore, (accept for maybe monday at Alex's, holy crap it's been like.. 2 months since I've played D8 if I go). I'm thankful for the time to get out with these guys when I can.

That's the majority of what I wanted to say thank you for, To all of my friends mentioned and not, I'm thankful for you all. I wish you the best of this Thanksgiving and holiday season.

So after nine days of arguing with my boss about having a weekend off to go see my girlfriend.. the Vice President of the company has stepped in and told us both to be in his office at 11:30AM today sharp.. here it is.. 5:00AM and I haven't gotten any sleep.. my stomach is sick over this thing..

Praying my god damn heart out that this ends well.. I'm hoping this doesn't cost me my job and I can go see my girlfriend.. the way things have been lately.. I really want to see her.. shit up here just plain sucks.. there's absolutely nothing up here worth being happy about or sticking around for.. the only person in my life that makes me happy is Katie.. and my job is coming in between us now.. not so much my job.. just my boss being a fucking asshole because he doesn't like me.  He plays favorites, and ironically, the guy who busts his ass and loves being there for more then just a paycheck, is the one who gets shit on and hassled out of wanting a weekend off to see my girlfriend..

This shit is so fucked.. I work five nights a week.. I've totally thrown my social life away for the past year.  I never see my friends anymore, aside from like once a month spur of the moment things with Ashley and Steve.. but I've sacrificed so much for my work, and all I ask for is one weekend, I do my job and don't screw off like everyone else in my department.. and this is my thank you.. a walk of shame down the hall to the corner office probably to be yelled at for arguing with my manager. 

I just don't know what to do anymore.. I just want to get the fuck out of this place and go someplace where I feel like I belong, but this place is like a god damn sinkhole.. always something that pops up and drags me back down into the hole.. I'm so damn tired of it.. I'm not about to give up on fighting for my happiness and being with Katie.. it just gets frustrating at times, and find myself just wishing for a miracle that just lets me say "Peace out"  of this shithole..

here's to hoping for a brighter side of my meeting and getting my time off to see my girlfriend..  I really need it.. I hate being away from her..  *sighs*  Wish me luck.. I'm gonna need it.. ; ;

Sometimes I fucking wonder how people like my boss can go to sleep at night, knowing how much of a fucking asshole he is.  I mean really, I swear he does half the shit to piss me off just because he doesn't like me.  I've been going on with him for 6 days, argueing that his reasoning for saying No to me for taking a weekend to see my girlfriend in November, is complete fucking bullshit.  He's just saying No because he doesn't like me for standing up to his bullshit of how badly he treats everyone in the office.

Really, he goes from saying "Yeah it's okay, get someone to swap with."  (So Based on that I booked my hotel room on hotwire. how hard would it be to get Steve to swap with right?)  To saying "No, not enough coverage."  Because I noticed after the fact of prepaying my visit, that every single person in my department, works weekends, making it impossible to swap.  There is, 4 other people who work in my area, all work weekends, all are plenty able to handle the weekend, I do it by myself for fucks sake, (And they're working when I do, thats just another rant waiting to happen.)  And they did it already for Furfright, they can't in November?

His fucking reasoning, "It's easier to give you the time off in the summer then the winter months."  Wait what? Summer is the busiest time of the year, logic would say, um, turn that around and it makes fucking sense.  I swear, Nothing ever goes right up here, I'm the only person at work who isn't there to just fucking float through the night and collect a paycheck, and this is what I get.  I work 5 nights a week, have no fucking life outside of work, and my asshole boss has not the decency to not be a fucking asshole and give me 1.  JUST 1 measly weekend off to see the most important person in my life.  Way to be a fucking jerk.  What a fucking god damned prick.  Seriously.  Thanks a lot.  

Needless to say, the 6 day email chain with him is going strong, I can't wait to see what's said today.  I'm about to tell him to stop being such a fucking asshole and just say "No, you can't have your weekend, simply cause I just don't like you," then make some new excuse every fucking day.  I god damn hate this fucking asshole, I hope for all this shit he's causing just over me going to see the one person who makes me happy that he gets what he deserves.  What goes around comes around.  

So yeah.. Back from Furfright.

Had an amazing weekend with my girlfriend, and hanging out with a few other friends.  Met some new people, I got a lot of suiting time in, and have to find people who got pictures of me and my girlfriend doing some suiting mischief.  >3

Anyways.. Back to the grind of the normal boring life..  I miss my girlfriend and wanna go back to philly to see her already ; ;..

I love how I've been gone for 10 days and when I get home, I don't get a nice "welcome back" or "how was your trip?"  I get, "We need some money."  Love you too, mom and dad.  I swear I'm just in the mindset to just up and leave not giving two shits and going somewhere where at least one person (That being my girlfriend) gives a damn about me, and actually enjoys having me around.  She's the closest person to being my real family then the ones who put me in this world.  Might as well up and leave here because it's just not worth dealing with anymore.. I'd rather be somewhere I'm happy and that's only right beside her.

End rant.

38 weeks since my last post this says.

I've been puttering around, redoing things on this and such.  It sure has been a while since I've posted here... wow.  I should pay more attention to my LiveJournal.  Lol. ):

Anyways, to sum up the past 38 weeks I feel off the earth.  Amazing.  <3  I have a wonderful girlfriend, went to my first AnthroCon and wore my suit for the first time there.  Got to spend a lot of time with my girlfriend there, (And a few other weekends. <3)  I just hate going home.. that's the worst part.

Job stuff, work sucks.  I despise my boss, he's such and ignorant twat.  Leaving it at that.

Furfright is coming soon!  Can't wait to have some fun and see my girl again <3.

  <- Omg ganked picture from Callee of myself and Signal, <3 Thanks for the pictureee :D

That is all for now, can't wait til FurFright (: